Marie Edmund

As winter approaches..

annaflashback@hotmail.com — Sat, 25 Oct 2003 21:14:19 GMT

As winter approaches the earth freezes over dreams get darker and fill with fear. Energy comes from the earth so as the earth freezes over it is harder to obtain that energy. That alone would scare anyone.

For the past two weeks my dreams have grown steadily darker and have steadily filled with fear. Nothing I have been able to do has been able to rid my dreams of this. I have to get used to this and learn to block out the darkness and the fear. Slowly I will but for now I have to live with it and figure out how to block it out.

It is getting colder here and darker...

Marie

Dreamwalking

annaflashback@hotmail.com — Sat, 19 Jul 2003 17:42:40 GMT

I went dreamwalking last night. I was suppose to meet up with my other friend that does the same thing. We were to meet at a coffee shop down by one of the malls here in town. I don't think that we met there. Because when I first saw her we were in a barn and we were sitting in lawn chairs. Some guy was with another guy and a blond haired girl. He splashed something on Flora. He was something like 10 feet away. I thought it was just water but when she stood up he took his fancy lighter and threw it to the ground lighting the liquid and it ran up to Flora. Instead of it consuming her she turned into a red orb and flung it at the guy. He was hit and he could no longer talk. Flora said since it was a red orb it made it so he couldn't talk. Then someone was kidnapped. I don't remember anything else.

~Marie

Its been ages...

annaflashback@hotmail.com — Mon, 05 May 2003 17:40:52 GMT

It's been ages since I last wrote here. I accidently pulled Russ into a dream one night and the next night did the same to my sister. We both dreamed that we were in Europe. In the dream with Russ we were running from someone or something.

One of the flashbacks seems to be way out there and I don't think it could possibly be true and yet I somehow wish it was. I miss Ryan very much. He said that he would never leave me and he left. He died that night on the beach and it was my fault.

I want him back. Now there is Russ in my life and he is everything. He is just like Ryan but I will not let myself think that this could be Ryan. Russ doesn't remember a thing and maybe if he is Ryan it is better this way because there was a lot of pain but there was happiness too.

Marie Edmund

A Good Flashback

annaflashback@hotmail.com — Wed, 09 Apr 2003 22:11:23 GMT

Ryan and I were sitting in one of Liz's gardens. It was a beautiful day...I think it was late spring. The sky was blue and it was so warm. There was a breeze.

He and I were so happy. I think it was the day that I told him that I was with child.

One of the happier times before terror struck...

~Marie

Stopped

annaflashback@hotmail.com — Fri, 28 Mar 2003 06:49:51 GMT

The nightmares have stopped. *Knocks on wood*.

Now maybe I can sleep and not worry about things again.

I talked to Flora's bf today. I wasn't sure about what she told him about the past so I let him lead into it.

I didn't tell him anything that I remembered. It wasn't my place to tell him about what happened. If Flora wants to share that then I have to get her permission about it. Just like I did when I told Russ. I told him my side but I didn't tell him that Flora was involved in it until after I asked her if it was ok.

If Flora wants to tell him about me then that is ok too.

I have the most powerful flashback when I was with the both of them.

It could of been me looking at Elizabeth through Anna's eyes or maybe just maybe it could of been me looking through Nathaniel's eyes.

I think anything is possible at this stage of the game.

I have to go to bed and maybe I will dream about happier times from the past.

~Marie

Another One

annaflashback@hotmail.com — Thu, 27 Mar 2003 18:10:28 GMT

I was standing on the top of the stairs and I was suddenly scared and the scene changed to show a victorian staircase. I was scared that I was going to fall down the stairs. It was like someone was going to push me down the stairs.

I grabbed the bannister and held on for dear life as I made my way down the stairs.

Nothing to worry about now. It has only happened twice and both times I made it down the stairs in one piece.

~Marie

Nightmares

annaflashback@hotmail.com — Mon, 24 Mar 2003 16:39:28 GMT

This past weekend I have been waking up from nightmares at 5 in the morning.

Last night there was one when I was a witness to a murder. The man that killed the other man knew that I was there and was taunting me. He wanted to prove to me that he was capable of killing. It was a test.

I was in his car and then suddenly I wasn't. I wanted out of the car and without opening the door or actually getting out of the car I was out. I started running as fast as I could. We were in a mall parkade. It didn't even seem like I was missed by this man.

I ran and hid. That was it until I woke up. I fell back asleep and had more nightmares. I don't really remember these ones. I knew that I was running again from someone or something. This wasn't the same person that was doing this as the last time but it is real again. Flora I need your help again if you are up to it.

~Marie

Vision

annaflashback@hotmail.com — Fri, 21 Mar 2003 22:25:03 GMT

I had a vision last night and the sad part is that it came true today or rather last night.

I was laying in bed and I had my eyes closed. I was totally relaxed and was about to fall asleep.

It was dark and I saw myself looking at a speeding tram. I saw the lights and recognized that part of the tracks. I saw it speed past me and hit a man.

I was able to remove myself from my body in the vision and could see myself looking at the tram.

This morning I heard on the radio that a man was hit by the tram and they weren't sure who he was.

I can still see myself looking at the tram and the background dark and red.

I haven't had a vision about the future in a very long time. The last time I did a teen was killed at a local high school.

I don't like these visions but this is part of who I am and yes it can be scary but there have to be good visions too I just haven't had any yet.

~Marie

The lastest flashback

annaflashback@hotmail.com — Mon, 10 Mar 2003 23:08:22 GMT

I was sitting with Flora and Nathaniel and we were watching anime. I zoned out for a moment and saw a woman against a red background. She was in a rose garden like the ones that Elizabeth kept. She stopped by one of the roses and held it in her hand and let it slip through her fingers and continued walking. I was able to put myself in the woman's shoes. I was able to be that woman. It has been the strongest flashback or vision that I have experienced. I was brought back to reality with a sort of jolt that I didn't realize then.

When I was telling Flora about it I again had to act out the vision. I didn't have control over my body. I let myself go into it.

It was thrilling and exciting but terrifying at the same time because it hasn't been that real before.

Nathaniel doesn't know that he was also there in the past but maybe he will one day.

~Marie

March Fourth and Fifth of this Year

annaflashback@hotmail.com — Mon, 10 Mar 2003 18:29:28 GMT

A red background, the sky has gone red. Ryan has just died and Anna is beggin him not to leave her. He is her soulmate, her one and only love and he is dead because he tried to save her that night. I can see Anna's face contorted in pain ofr losing Ruan and the fear of her unborn child, No one could comfort her, not even Elizabeth.

Ryan died in her arms that night on the beach. They hadn't been married for than a year and they were expecting their first child. Anna lost her soulmate that night and a few months later Anna and her unborn child died. She died from a broken heart. No one could bring her out of her despair, not even Elizabeth.

As Ryan laid there dying in her arms he reached up and cupped her cheeck in his hand and told Anna that he loved her and he would come back, he would always be with her.

The flashbacks started back in high school when I met my friend Flora. We both remembered that Cliffs, the beach, the mansion and the cottage. Anna loved working ofr Eliabeth. Anna's mother was dead andso Eliabeth became an employer, a mother and a friend to Anna. Anna became the governance to two small children that were wards of Elizabeth.

The masion was large and beautiful, it was a victorian mansion. There was a forest of to the right of the estate and the cloffs were to the left. The forest always seemed dark even on the sunniest of days. There was a cottage righ before the tress befan to cluster into the forest. There was a cobblestone path leading from the main house to Elizabeth's cottage. Anna helped Elizabeth in that cottage. Anna had a special gift.

~Marie

Another Flashback But Not The Kind That I Have Experienced Before

annaflashback@hotmail.com — Sun, 09 Mar 2003 23:20:17 GMT

I was sitting at my computer working on my paper and I was suddenly filled with such love and warmth and the nervousness of a brand new love that I have ever felt. I am Anna from the past. A past life that has been resufacing through dreams and flashbacks/visions. Was this love I felt from Ryan that promised that he would never leave me or did I let my shield down long enough so that my love here in the present was able to send over his emotions?

I don't know...

~Marie

Wow

annaflashback@hotmail.com — Sun, 09 Mar 2003 02:25:38 GMT

Not much that I want to write about right now. I will come back later and right more. I am talking to the man that I love. So everyone have a goodnight.

~Marie